A new deal, a new attitude...

Every year on this day I choose a word to describe the new year I hope to have. This last year I chose the word opportunity, and man o man did I get some awesome ones! I got an amazing job where I feel welcome, I made great connections that will stay with me for a lifetime, and I made giant leaps towards the person I hope to one day be!

The word I choose for 2017 is dream. I hope to make steps toward obtaining my dream, I hope to more precisely define my dream, and I hope to always remember to take a step back breathe, forget the stress of my life, and remember to dream bigger than I ever thought possible!

What word do you want to strive for in 2017?

The monster that lives by my side...

I have a shadow that follows me around,
A living monster who haunts me, but has no sound.
It's always been there, with or without my knowing.
I'm never safe from its power ever-growing.
I feel it near me as I go throughout my day.
I try to hide, but it sees me where ever I may lay.
Though I always smile to everyone I see,
I know there is a monster always following me.
Positive I think, but it always finds a way
To bring in the doubt, I'm always in its sway.
While on my own in its grasp I am held day to day.
With my strength alone life always looked kind of gray,
But I know that on the inside I will always have a guide!
Someone to help me, he takes my worries in his stride.
My God is with me! My salvation to secure!
I'll make it through, though it's not easy to procure.
I know one day my monster will subside,
But for now, I will, in this world reside.
I'll be myself, and always be okay!
Sharing my smile, making someone's day.
I'll keep on praying for strength to overcome,
While I thank my Lord for the person I've become!

The importance of self-confidence...

Many days I look around and see two types of people. There are people who are certain, and there are people who are reluctant. Many times when I spend the extra moment to talk to them, I learn something, and from those somethings I learn a big truth. It is our acceptance of who we are that brings self-confidence.

If you look at a young child, you can tell that they have confidence in who they are. But as time goes on, we begin  to lose that confidence. We start to allow ourselves and others to tear us down. As someone who has always had a lack of self confidence, I can tell you it's not easy to build     your self-confidence back up, and it's near impossible to     keep it up. It always appears as though we have a bunch of things pushing against us, but in the end it is ourselves who are our own stumbling blocks.

In my experience, I've found a few things that have helped me to regain, and maintain my confidence.

One of the things that I have always used against myself is my height. My height is fine, and honestly I don't mind it, but sometimes when someone else brings it up, I can't help but feel odd. I know people who are taller than me, I know people who are shorter that me, and I know people around the same height (like the giraffe I met at the zoo the other day). Height is different for everyone. Height is something that some are blessed with, and others are blessed without, and that is okay. Once I realized this I learned that it's okay to be little old 6 foot something me!!! Sometimes it just takes a little bit to remind ourselves, I am good enough.

I know lots of people who are labeled as "vain". I know many of people who deserve that title, but I'm talking about the people that are viewed in that way because they "invest too much of their time on their looks". When I hear this my blood boils! When somebody takes the time to improv themselves, it's okay, in many cases it's even beneficial. When we step back, and decide who we want to be, and then go out and become that person it's the best thing we can do! When someone does their makeup, dyes their hair, or even just styles that hair, they are making a good investment. After they do all that they feel beautiful. When someone goes out and buys a new wardrobe, and take time to develop their own personal style, they feel comfortable in who they are, and that's great! Sometimes it does us good to remind ourselves that we are worth it!!!

It may be hard, it may take awhile, but to be confident in who we are is the best feeling out there. And it helps us to be better. So yes I'm going to continue to be outspoken, I'm going to wear my sweaters and scarves, I may even go back to blonde, because I am enough and I recognize that. I'll still have my moments of doubt, but I know that I can make it through. I am certain of who I am, I walk around with a glow of happiness, I am the Donovan Bird, a son of a holy being. Now the question is who are you?

Which "Me"

Sometimes I struggle with my self image. I worry about what people will think about. I ponder on what I can do to improve me. I obsess over what I see as my faults, the parts that make me feel inadequate. I focus on the outward version of me.

The outward "Me"

But that is only a small fraction of who we are!!! Have you ever had a day where you were truly you? A day that you did everything the way that comes naturally, without worrying about how you appear to others? A day where you "Let your Freak Flag fly"? Now think back to that day, and think how it felt. Did you feel Confidence? Did you feel Happy? Did you feel at Peace? Did you feel Hopeful for your future? 

I refere to that type of day as a day where your "true self" or "inner self" was showing through with Confidence! 

Whenever I try to wrap my head around who my true self is, I don't think of an echo of my outerself, but I see it as more of an abstract thing. A collection of what makes me ME!!!

A version of the true me.

When we acknowledge who our true self is, we will be more content with our outward self. When we view our inner self, we see potential. My goal is to reach a point where I can see my outward person, and see past my faults and failures, and instead see Strength, Passion, Drive, and Purpose. What do you want to see when you look in the mirror? 

2015 in one post...

Twenty-fifteen was a CRAZY Year!!! I had so much fun.

Pink gorilla at the Winter Homeschool Conference? I think yes!

I had my good days,

I had my bad days,

But through the whole year I had my friends,

 I had my Family,

And I had a lot of fun!!!

Whether I was Baking,

Or trying out new hair colors,

I worked hard,

I have grown throughout this last year, I've changed. I traveled, I taught others, I learned from many, but in the end I'm the same old me!

Just maybe a little more mature...

It's okay to be different... It's good to be different... Right?

A flower does not think of competing with the flower next to it. It just blooms.

        When I would sing a few years ago I was a beautiful Tenor! When I would sing last year I was a gorgeous Bass. But now I have to work hard to hit the wonderful bass notes that are in a "bass range", but I can sing the Tenor notes with ease.

        Now that would not be a problem if I was not in a position where I have to sing a song with two other people; and one of the people I sing with has an impossibly, and ridiculously low/deep voice. The other boy that we sing with has a perfect tenor voice, but he keeps finding himself singing "painfully low" notes. When I sing with the later of the two I keep him at the higher note, and it sounds great! But when the third joins in we have a slight problem where my dear friends both sing really deep. So now I have to work hard to master, and control of my deeper register. It's a big balancing act, and it's not the easiest, but I'm hoping it can all work out!

Whatever makes you weird, is probably your greatest asset.

                 ~Joss Whedon

        I asked myself the other day, if I had to move to a different state, or maybe even a different country, how many of my friends would still be my friends when I came back? Which ones would  miss me? And in all honesty, I think there would a very large portion of people that would stay in touch. I am hoping that is because I am a quirky, loud, social, and an oddball not in spite of it. But I'm pretty sure it's because they are good, nice, and caring people! 

        This random question has me thinking, what makes me a good friend? Am I a good friend? What makes a good friend? THINKING CAN GET REALLY PAINFUL, and repetitive... So what do you think makes a good friend?

New York, Friends, Family, and hard work...

        So last week I flew out to New York to visit my Best friend, and my almost family. It was so much fun! I didn't get to go into New York city, I didn't visit Broadway, but I enjoyed every moment of it.

        The trip started on a plane. Haha! It was a plane to Chicago. I spent one day visiting my second cousin Billee, and her sweet husband Larry in a little town a little away from Chicago. We got Chicago pizza, and honestly I don't see what all the fuss is about. It wasn't awful, but it also wasn't my favorite. Lets see if I can describe it. Its crust was like a pie crust, a thin buttery yummyness. The pizza had a whole lot of sauce, it was like a soup. At this particular restaurant we got it with Chicken, red peppers, sun dried tomatoes, and some fresh Basil. It was a good combo, but their sun dried tomatoes were large, so in the whole lot of sauce they got gummy. It was odd but kind of yummy. Would I get Chicago over normal? No. Would I eat it again? Possible.

        Then Billee bought me POPCORN!!!!!!! But not just any popcorn, it was Chicago style Popcorn. I LOVE that type of popcorn, it's a mix of Cheese, and Caramel popcorn. It's super Yummy!!!

         I then flew to the Buffalo Niagara Airport. I was picked up by my friend Avot, The Goob, and Chugger Dude (I love their nicknames!). We drove over to their home. Now let me tell you New York in October is the best, most beautiful, most magical thing I have ever seen!

        While I was there we visited Palmyra, walked through the Sacred Grove, Visited the Log house, the frame house, The Hill Cumorah, Alvin's Grave, The print shop, and I got to do Baptisms for the dead in the Palmyra Temple. It was a perfect trip! Just wish my BF could've come.

        We also went on a hike in Watkins Glen. Talk about magic! It had waterfalls, an orange glow from the Autumn leaves, and my Best Friend wearing a wrap with his little brother tied in! Magically wonderful trip! And this is the trip I met my favorite Aunt, Aunt Jackie! She was great!

        I loved our trip to Niagara falls! I loved the cute small town I stayed in, the cute little Chocolate shop, and the Erie Canal! Kel E. and I went to a ward members to chop a whole lot of wood! They tried to kill me with a 1lbs burger and then a 3/4 lbs burger. I think I am going Vegan. Haha! But the most fun came from just sitting around the house with all my friends! I am so grateful for the time I got to spend with the Biesinger family, I hope to see them again someday, But as of right now I may not see them for more than THREE years!

I guess this is goodbye old pals!You've been a perfect gang! Love you all!

Sometimes we have to say au revoir...

Some may find this to be an over dramatic sob story, luckily you'll live!!!

         Yesterday I went to help my best friend run errands, today we went to have fun at Lagoon, tomorrow my best friend, my second Mom, and a bunch of my friends are leaving. They are moving to New York. 

         I will miss them more than I can put into words! I am so appreciative for the love and care that they have provided for me. I am so excited to go visit in October! 

         I will miss the Bee half of my family, but I know that this will be a great experience for them! 

Au Revoir my singing Bees!

My priorities are slightly odd for my age...

I am a procrastinator, let's just get that out right now.

       I have been wanting to make a vision board. For those of you who don't know what that is, a vision board is a board/book/wall that you put everything on! You place your goals, dreams, inspiration, and things that mean something to you on it. You can use pictures, words, or drawings. There are no limits to what you can do with it!!!!!

        I put a few (a lot more than a few :) ) things up on a poster board. I choose a few things from each category, and some of them overlap.

        In the goals section, I put a picture of a Missionary tag (I also made a little thermometer thing that will measure how much I have saved for my mission), The San Diego LDS Temple (I don't know why but it's my favorite, and I want to get married there one day.), a photo of the Niagara falls (I'm going to see them in October!!!), My drivers Lincense (I don't think that I have made it too important to myself...), A picture of a guy on a mountain (I'm starting a routine of going on a hike AT LEAST once a month), the word Joy, a Pharmacy tech badge (I have been planning on getting certified),  and the Book of Mormon (I have been trying super hard to get through it all, I've let myself be too busy so I haven't read it yet).

        For my dreams I have, The San Diego LDS Temple, a blue I Phone 5 (I can dream right?), a nice newer BLUE car, and a Pharmacy tech badge.

        In my inspiration area I found, a Picture of a red umbrella sticking out above a bunch of black ones (To remind me to be ME even on the gloomy days), a picture of a yellow smiley face surrounded by a bunch of blue Sad faces (for a reason that I don't feel like sharing today), The word God (He is my biggest Inspiration!), the Word Friend I have been working hard to become a better friend, I put the word Joy to remind me to always find "Joy in the Journey"

        And last but certainly not least, right in the middle I put a picture of me (Right after I got a haircut) with my Best Friend Forever and Ever DBSTSDC, It may have been the best moment that I have EVER had captured on camera!

My thoughts on the family...

        As I was driving around with my dear Mother she said something that made the cogs in my head turn. She said, "Whatever you do in your life it will have to involve taking care of things." For many people that is a simple statement that wouldn't make much impact, but for me it opened a whole new part of the world!!!!!

        In this day and age many people are trying to decide what their stance on how the family should work. Some think the women should be at home caring for the kids and house, baking pies for when their hubby comes home. Some believe in both parents being out making something of themselves out in the work field. Some are starting to have the women be the provider, and have the husband at home caring for the kids. Personally I think it doesn't matter, as long as the children are provided for.

        As I thought on what my Momm said I decided I would enjoy the last of those options. I realized that all of my life I have been doing things that I could ,make money doing, AT HOME!!!!! I love the idea of staying home with my kids, while making money growing food, raising livestock, and making soaps, cheeses, lotions, etc... I have always loved caring, and I love loving! I have always enjoyed what I do. I have loved living the way I have lived!

        I also realized that all of the college courses I've been interested in are things that I could do from home. Those courses are Marine Biology, Pharmaceuticals, Veterinary science, Botany, Architecture, and Business Management/Marketing.

        Raising and breeding Marine life such as, Corals, Anemones, and Fish, can be a very profitable (and pricey to start) business.

        With a knowledge of Veterinary Sciences, and Pharmaceuticals I can raise Goats, Cows, Pigs, Chickens, Rabbits etc... And if I raise those animals I can provide food for my family, and maybe have a little extra to sell for $.

        I can also grow and sell Fruits, Vegetables, Herbs, Flowers, and many other helpful, and healthy Items.

        I have always wanted to design my own house! I love to draw up plans, and blueprints, and dreaming about all the possibilities!

        And of course to make money with anything I would have to know how to run and advertise a business.

       So I have realized I really would love to be a stay at home Dad!!!!! But of course that is going to be a decision to be made by my Wife, and I.

       I hope that all of you are able to find what works for you one day. Have a wonderful life!

Your friend Donovan. ;)

Life can be painful...

     It's not very fun, but it is always worth it! (Hopefully!!!)

     Lately I have been struggling with certain circumstances that have popped up in my life. It seemed as though God looked down from the clouds and said, I hate you Donovan! (Name that movie and you get brownie points.) Everything was falling apart. (Or so it seemed.)

     My best friend from my tween years is going on a Mission soon, I haven't been able to come to terms with this. My Best Friend now is moving forever away! I refuse to never see him again though!!!!! My sister moved to North Dakota WITH MY NIECE, AND MY (soon to be) NEPHEW (She is gonna pop any day now!) I can't figure out what to do with my future... :(  This may not seem that big, because "From the outside looking in, it's hard to understand. From the inside looking out, it's hard to explain."  ~Anonymous

     I have been afraid of moving forward, the pain that I feel, the pain that I will feel, it is all just really intimidating... But as they say, "Everything You've ever wanted is on the other side of fear."  ~Anonymous

     I have let Fear rule my life for too long! I fed my fears instead of my Faith. I have had my priorities in a horrible order lately. I want to change that, but it's hard!

     I think it's hard for me because I always take care of others. Now don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with taking care of others, but if you put too much time and energy into helping others and save none for yourselves it is draining.  "Sometimes you don't realize your actually drowning when you're trying to be everyone else's anchor." ~Anonymous

     I have thinking a lot, and decided there are some things that I will do  to change how I live. I will spend less time taking care of others, and more time building up my spiritual and physical foundation! I will try to take care of my needs before I go spending money on everyone in the county. I will always take time out of my day to pray, and speak to my Father in Heaven. I will let others know how much I appreciate them at every opportunity I get. I will look at life more positively! But most importantly I will always remember the Love that my Lord. and Savior has for me!

     Thank you for listening to me rant. I would like to leave you with this final Quote, "Hang in there. It is astonishing how short a time it can take for very wonderful things to happen" ~Anonymous

I have decided...

     First of all, I've gone International! Quick shout out to my 32 viewers from France, my 2 from Germany, and my 1 from Poland!!! And of course the 86 in the USA.    Thank You ALL!!!!! Now on to Business.

     Lately my mind has been in the future. I know many people who have made a list of requirements for their future Spouse, but I am not worried about that right now. Although I have been pondering the question of "What type of house will I have?" And "What type of a life will I live?"

     Some may know that I LOVE Architecture!!! I love to sketch up some blueprints of houses that I want to build and live in. But that isn't really what I have been focusing on. I have been thinking more of the spiritual aspects of a home. I made a list of the things that I want in my future house, and family:

• I will always have music playing somewhere in the house! I love the effect that Music makes on my life. It can change the mood faster than anything that I know of.
• All of my children will know how to play the piano, and at LEAST one other instrument. Music is a wonderful thing. In my opinion it is the best language to learn in life!
• I will always take time to be outdoors. I don't care how big and extravagant my house may be, if I have the time I will be outside!
• My house will never be "too small" to take in someone, or something that needs my help! I will go poor and eat worms for breakfast before I let someone go hungry, naked, or cold. I will love no matter what comes into my home (no matter how hard it will be (Daughters boy friends...))  
• I will always have time for my kids. I may have to sacrifice time at work, or even (and heaven please forbid this one) Me time, but I will always be open to listen and help my children! Same goes for anyone in my house.
• My family will have Family Home Evenings every Monday. I don't care if their favorite band is playing that night, I don't care if Elder Holland invited us to Dinner (and if he does, shame on him! Doesn't he know that's family night?!?!) we are having FHE!!!!
• We will have flowers and plants around the house. AT LEAST ONE IN EACH ROOM! Plants bring happiness, and fresh air to all around them. There will be no ifs ands or buts to this one!
• My children will know how (and will succed) to keep a plant alive before they turn 18.

     I have also been thinking about the life that I will live. The previous section kind of covered some of it, but I want to list my self-standards anyways:

• I will love my Wife more than the Sun, Moon, and Stars! Some have asked things like "what would you do if your Wife didn't want the animals anymore?" And they sound so scared and worried, they think that I would be devastated, that I would divorce her, or worse... Get rid of the animals! and my only answer for them is, that won't happen. It always has been, and will be a requirement that my Wife will accept and love the Animals and children that I pick up off of the streets. There literal is nothing else to it.
• I will love my children more than all the worlds wealth!
• I will always help those in need. I heard a story of this ninety something year old women who was making food for the elderly, not thinking about how SHE was considered part of the elderly! One day I will be barely making ends meat, but every paycheck I will still donate a portion to charities.
• I will always be learning something new! I am deeply offended by the people who say "Old dogs can't learn new tricks." That is a load of Thorny Roses my friend!
• I will pray every day and night. Even when I'm old and fragile I will get done on my knees and thank my maker for all the many blessings he has bestowed upon my head!
• I will make fitness and healthy eating important in my life.

      Many of these goals will be hard to obtain, and even harder to follow through with, but I know that my Father in Heaven will help me. 

Keeping your standards in the world is...

     In this day and age it is very hard to keep our standards. Is it worth it?  This is a question that I have asked myself many times. A lot of the time its the small things that are the hardest.

     One of the (small) things that I have problems with is Modesty. When I go swimming I wear a rash guard. Many people nowadays have a snarky rude comment or two to share about it. It's really makes life hard for me. Not many understand why I wear it, and even fewer that understand the why agree or support me in my choice. Now I'd like to thank the people who do support me in my choice.

     Another standard of mine that I struggle to keep is not drinking coffee, especially since I work at a coffee shop. The boss of the boss of my boss has been at my store every day that I have worked. He tries to get me to taste the difference of Iced coffee and Hot coffee, or hand mixed coffee with flavoring and swirled coffee with flavoring. No matter how many times I tell him that I don't drink coffee, He tries again. It's getting a little annoying.

     So tell me Whats one of your standards that you have a problem with?

Life evaluation...

     Today I went to watch a performance of a choir that I used to be part of. It was amazingly beautiful. I spent twenty minutes greeting everyone in sight! Many of my beloved young friends embraced me exclaiming, "I haven't seen you in forever", and "where have you been!" Some claimed to "hate" me for never coming to see them. One kind women told me that she missed seeing me on the stage.

     It made me think about how none of us truly realize how much of a difference we all make everyday!!!

     Try thinking about how you matter to this world, now times that by a Bazillion!!!!!! You are now within Eighty-Thousand of the real amount.

     So what are you going to do now? I know what I'm going to do. I am going to work harder to live life, and to enjoy life! I will share my smile with everyone. I will spend more time with my friends. I will now use my time and money wiser then ever before!

     So now I ask you are you going to do anything new, different, or better? If so what? Feel free to share below!!!  Thank you for reading all of my post!

Hard decisions...

Life is full of hard decisions. That is a fact that we all need to face!

     At this moment I am making many hard decisions, some may seem silly, but they are terrifyingly hard for me!!!  I got a job, I got this job without an interview or an application. The problem is that after 5 weeks I still haven't heard back from them.  So I have to decide do I take the job? Or is there a better job out there?   I dislike this question for 3 reasons. Reason 1, It takes a lot of time to find a job! I thought that I had a job (and it only took a month and a half) but now I might have to look for a different one! :(   Reason 2, I don't like disappointing people.    Reason 3, It's hard.

     My BEST friend invited me to see his play, but I already had plans to do something else (something that I have already put money towards)!    This wouldn't be so hard except that I already told him that he is required to come to my play at the end of the month.    WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

     Another decision that I am making is whether I should start a Youtube channel or not.   Its outside of my comfort zone. To share my life over a blog is one thing, but to share my face and voice over a video is a completely different thing that scares me!!!!!!

I hope that all of you are having better luck with life then I am.

Today I learned an important lesson...

         So I was feeling really useless and down on myself! :( Which is a very weird feeling for me. I posted awhile ago about my decision to get a new job, well that didn't work out. I worked at the new job for about 3 weeks. I loved it! I was getting so many hours, I loved the people, and I learned how to do everything that my age didn't restrict! It was AMAZING!

         After 2 1/2 weeks Corporate decided to transfer my older sister to my store. Fun times I get to work with one of my favorite sisters, right? Wrong, it is against company policy for me to work under a family member. So they tried (really hard) to transfer me to another store, (because they didn't want to lose such a good employee.) The closest store was a 30 minute drive from my house! So I got mad, and I gave the good old "Give me this store, or give me termination!" speech. It didn't work. so now I am unemployed... Again.

         So it was the obvious thing to think, that maybe I was the problem. Maybe I shouldn't get a job. Which you should all know is an incorrect thought process. So I was feeling down, then I went a visited a very good friend. She was telling me about how she quit violin because it wasn't fun for her anymore. I convinced her to try it after 3 years of not even touching it, and see if she liked it anymore. She did, and she still doesn't like it. But that made me think, why did I ever stop playing the piano? It made me happy, I just didn't like the lack of progress that I was making. I figured that I should have picked it up super fast! Be playing Bach in 2 weeks time! But it didn't go that way. I learned at the same pace as everyone else. So I stopped. I was recently in a Choir for this ig celebration, that they were broadcasting around the world! I learned that I still love all things music. So what was stopping me.

         I tried to play the piano yesterday, I loved it, and I was still good at it! So now I want to play the piano as often as possible!

         This was an interesting week for me. I learned important lessons,

Beauty is whatever gives joy.  ~Edna St. Vincent Millay. 

Music in itself is healing. It's an explosive expression of humanity. It's something we are all touched by. No matter what culture we're from, everyone loves music. ~Billy Joel

Now in parting I give you this, to ponder,

A painter paints pictures on canvas. But musicians paint their pictures on silence. ~Leopold Stokowski 

Life is hard...

Come on now, we all know it. Not even I can deny it.

     I had a job at a restaurant, but I had problems there. So I had to Quit. I loved working there, I loved the people there, and I loved the benefits!!!! All of that made it really hard to Quit. So I had to decide if the job was benefiting me enough to stay, with all the problems and complications that came with it.

     The day that I made My decision, I discovered that "Life is hard." 
My reasons behind that are, 

#1, Sometimes you have to make the hard decisions. 
#2, People come and go.
#3, Pain is always a part of Life.

     Well let me ask, why do people continue to go through with life if this is the case? Well let`s answer that question by going more in depth!

     Sometimes we have to make the hard decisions, so that we can better live our lives. When we face a hard problem, We progress. Jairam Ramesh a member of The Indian National Congress  said  "There never is a good time for tough decisions. There will always be an election or something else. You have to pick courage and do it. Governance is about taking tough, even unpopular, decisions."

     People come and go, but friendships are forever! As a wise man named Kahlil Gibran once said, 

“If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.” And so we see if they are our friends, then we have nothing to fear when they leave.

     Pain is a part of life, but so is Love, Happiness, and (the best of all) Friends! A great Inspiration to me, Kelly Clarkson has this to say, "My friends and family are my support system. They tell me what I need to hear, not what I want to hear and they are there for me in the good and bad times. Without them I have no idea where I would be and I know that their love for me is what's keeping my head above the water."

     So don't worry if you have to make the hard decisions, or if People come and go, and definitely don't worry about Pain being part of life.

     To finish My story, I ended up quitting that job. I found a job that works better for me! A job that I am happier at. I love life! It is the best thing that ever happened to me. Earlier we asked a question, why do people continue to go through life if that is the case? Let me now answer in more simple terms, We live because we have to, because we enjoy many moments of it. We live because we crave to know the unknown! So keep living! Learn what you don't know! Do what you want to do, no matter what!!!!!     

It is hard to say goodbye...

     Today I go to say Goodbye to a very good friend of mine! :(  2 weeks ago I said goodbye my second Dromio!(Or was he my twin Brothers (who was actually my Sister) Dromio?)  :( 4 weeks ago I said goodbye to a best friend. :'(  They are all going on a "Humanitarian" Project for their Church. 2 will be gone for 2 YEARS!!!!!!!!! The other will only be gone for 1.5 years.

     I am happy for them,  to be able to serve for something that they believe in!!!! I will miss them! Luckily the 2 who are gone for longer have Younger Brothers to replace them with. (I think that I like the little Brothers better. Shh don't tell.)  I will miss them terrible! But I still have many Friends and My BESTEST OF FRIENDS!!! So I think that I'll manage. It will be hard though. I will need lots of support and Friend time ;) but I will manage. I will make it through!

     I can still send them Emails and Letters (Which by the way sounds like a preposterous Idea to me! "Oh look I got an 'H' this week!!!!" LAME!!!!) (My Momm just told me that a letter is a message sent in an Envelope. Why in the Beautiful world would they call it a "Letter" it seems very Silly to me! But whatever.) so it isn't like I can`t talk to them.

     Now I am off to My good friend Costards Farewell!!! Farewell!!!  Bon Voyage!! (Which means safe travels in French so I will be using it more often!) Until next time my Dear Friends!

Quotes to live by.

   WORK FOR A CAUSE NOT FOR APPLAUSE. LIVE LIFE TO EXPRESS, NOT TO IMPRESS. DON'T STRIVE TO MAKE YOUR PRESENCE NOTICED, JUST MAKE YOUR ABSENCE FELT. 

~UNKNOWN

    TO REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE, YOU NEED TO FORGET WHO THEY TOLD YOU TO BE.

~UNKNOWN

    BE A VOICE NOT AN ECHO

~UNKNOWN

    BE STRONG. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO YOU`RE INSPIRING.   

~UNKNOWN

    DON`T PROMISE WHEN YOU`RE HAPPY. DO NOT REPLY WHEN YOUR ANGRY. DO NOT DECIDE WHEN YOU`RE SAD.    

~UNKNOWN

    FORGIVE OTHERS NOT BECAUSE THEY DESERVE FORGIVENESS, BUT BECAUSE YOU DESERVE PEACE

~UNKNOWN

    BELIEVE IN THE SUN, EVEN WHEN ITS NOT SHINING. 

    BELIEVE IN LOVE, EVEN WHEN ALONE. 

    BELIEVE IN GOD, EVEN WHEN HE IS SILENT.

~UNKNOWN

    WHEN SOMETHING BAD HAPPENS YOU HAVE THREE CHOICES. YOU CAN EITHER LET IT DEFINE YOU, LET IT DESTROY YOU, OR YOU CAN LET IT STRENGTHEN YOU.

~UNKNOWN

    BE SO GOOD THEY CAN`T IGNORE YOU

~STEVE MARTIN

     I`VE SEEN BETTER DAYS, BUT I`VE ALSO SEEN WORSE.

     I DONT HAVE EVERYTHING THAT I WANT, BUT I DO HAVE ALL I NEED.

     I WOKE UP WITH SOME ACHES AND PAINS, BUT I WOKE UP. 

    MY LIFE MAY NOT BE PERFECT BUT I AM BLESSED.

~UNKNOWN

    DON`T FEEL BAD IF PEOPLE REMEMBER YOU ONLY WHEN THEY NEED YOU.

     FEEL PRIVILEGED THAT YOU ARE A CANDLE THAT COMES TO THEIR MIND WHEN THERE IS DARKNESS.

~UNKNOWN

    REMEMBER THAT YOU WERE GIVEN THIS LIFE BECAUSE YOU'RE STRONG ENOUGH TO LIVE IT. 

~UNKNOWN

    YOU MAY THINK THE GRASS IS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE, BUT IF YOU TAKE THE TIME TO WATER YOUR OWN GRASS IT WOULD BE JUST AS GREEN.

~UNKNOWN

    FILL YOUR BUCKET OF SELF-ESTEEM SO HIGH THAT THE REST OF THE WORLD CAN`T POKE ENOUGH HOLES TO DRAIN IT DRY...

~ALVIN PRICE

    WHY FIT IN WHEN YOU WERE BORN TO STAND OUT?

~DR. SUESS

    SOMETIMES WHEN THINGS ARE FALLING APART THEY MAY ACTUALLY BE FALLING INTO PLACE.

~UNKNOWN

    IMAGINATION IS THE ONLY WEAPON IN THE WAR AGAINST REALITY.

~UNKNOWN

    NEVER LOOK BACK. IF CINDERELLA WENT TO PICK UP HER SHOE, SHE WOULDN'T HAVE BECOME A PRINCESS.

~UNKNOWN

    FEED YOUR FAITH AND YOUR FEARS WILL STARVE TO DEATH.

~JOYCE MEYER

    NEVER FORGET WHO YOU ARE.   

~MUFASA

    THE WORLD WILL NOT BE DESTROYED BY THOSE WHO DO EVIL, BUT BY THOSE WHO WATCH THEM WITHOUT DOING ANYTHING.

~ALBERT EINSTEIN

     WHEN PEOPLE HURT YOU OVER AND OVER, THINK OF THEM AS SANDPAPER.

     THEY MAY SCRATCH AND HURT YOU A BIT, BUT IN THE END YOU END UP POLISHED, AND THEY END UP USELESS.

~CHRIS COLFER

My experience at the Dollar Store. (mostly just Me turning an experience into a Dramatic story)

OK, so I was at the Dollar Tree with My Grandpa, and I saw it! My future Key chain!!!!! I started Freaking out in the front of this store. (My Grandpa rolled his eyes and walked away.) The Lady at the front asked if I was OK. She asked if I needed an inhaler. Then I said, "I need that Key chain! it has TASSELS" then at that moment she ruined My life! My entire existence! My purpose here on this Planet! This horrible dream crushing, soul eating, monster of a Cashier, asked "oh, are you Graduating this year." At that moment I looked closer. I almost fainted! My life flashed before My Eyes! I felt as if death had finally come upon Me! The perfect key had the numbers 2014 on it. I wailed in agony, as My heart was ripped from My chest. My life is ruined! 

And that is the story of how I got kicked out of the Dollar Store.